therapy Yesterday. We walk there. Teyla and I both leave the house/neighborhood on Wednesdays, and then I don't have to leave again until next Wednesday if I don't want to. Usually I don't.

Quarantine and being sick has reactivated my agoraphobia big time. I sense so deeply that I need to be left alone?? It's probably not healthy I admit. ( Read more... )

My therapist wants me to like myself and I am SO FRUSTRATED because I don't even know her--I mean.


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So my cousin skipped school yesterday. Today my dad has sentenced him to stay home from school, no TV, no internet, no phone. I was like "what the fuck is he gonna do all day" and my dad was like "I don't know and I don't care ( Read more... )

My brother: "I think if I had a shoulder angel, I'd like them to just punch me in the face when I do something bad. It should sting for a bit, and then I want it to taste... like lemon."

Went clothes shopping yesterday. Spent somewhere around 500 dollars-necessary? Well, since I was routinely wearing the exact same clothes week after week, I ( Read more... )

Today, despite my suicidal thoughts on Thursday, I feel good. I'm planning on going clothes shopping with my mother later today, and I picked up some supplements at the local organic food store that are supposed to help with mood (see last entry ( Read more... )

Sitting in my living room with my older brother. Peacefully! Try to contain your shock ( Read more... )

Big week coming up ( Read more... )

My aunt, my brother and his wife are here.

That means it's time to answer the age old question: "What are you doing with your time?"

Well. I volunteer, but that's just for an hour on Mondays, so far. (See this description of what I do when I volunteer.) Otherwise: I see my therapist every two weeks, my psychiatrist every month, and my SCL ( ( Read more... )

Why don't I write anymore ( Read more... )